Thanks Darl - I needed that perspective that I just couldn't internalise for myself!! Of course, I am ONLY 3 weeks in not I'VE DONE 3 WEEKS!! BIG Difference.
I also got 2 inbox messages from 2 lovely ladies from the L&S page, checking in with me as they were concerned about my posts lately and wanted to make sure I was ok, mindset wise!!
ALARM BELLS ARE RINGING when complete strangers can recognise signs in my behaviour that I cannot see myself.
To me constricting my carbs and water intake on the day before weigh day is NORMAL - these tricks I have been playing for years and years and years..... so posting the question "do you think restricting water is having the opposite effect to what I desire on the scales" to the Pirates was just a simple, curious question for me to ask - or so I thought!! Wow did the comments come in thick and fast!! CRAZY they think I'm CRAZY!!
I am so messed up in the head from YEARS of self destructive habits and thought patterns that I don't even know when I'm acting like a crazy person anymore!! What is completely normal in my head is irrational and disturbed in the minds of all the normal people out there!!
I am glad this happened though - I am glad that I can stop and step outside my brain and see where I was heading with that - down that same old self destructive path. It was a nice reality check to hear from those 2 women who felt concerned enough to reach out. I forget sometimes that I have chosen the path of GOOD HEALTH and FITNESS - not self destructive patterns of behaviour that only lead to short term, fleeting, pretend success. I chose to leave all that behind - I didn't even realise that I was allowing some of that old shit to crawl back in.
So in the spirit of healthy mind healthy body, today I am celebrating my wins!! Most of these wins have come to my attention by my, always there for me Husband last night during my breakdown.....
** I have completed my 12WBT L&S Program for 3 full weeks TO THE LETTER, no short cuts, no giving up
** I have completed 3 weeks with clean eating, solid nutition and without giving into tempation to eat sugar laden foods. (yay me!!)
** I can already see tone and definition in my upper body - in ONLY 3 weeks
** I have consistently increased my weights and/or reps in EVERY area of the program - I am SMASHING my workouts at the gym!! (and feel great about it!!)
** I got told by a mother at school that she believed I was a terrific mother and at 10 years my senior, she admired me for my parenting and for the wonderful example I set to my children and to many in the way I live my life with determination and perseverence. (tear)
** I have been told by so many people lately how I am inspiring them to go forth in their weight loss journeys and how they look to my progress and shift in mindset as an inspiration and a motivation for them to strive for success at their own goals!!
** I took the GA bib at netball today!! A game that I haven't played for 18years (and quite frankly it shows). I took that bib and scored 3 goals for my team!! More importantly I TRIED for 6!! I took the ball, focused on the net and gave it a god damn crack instead of simply passing it to the shooter!! (I did have a jump up and down squeeling clapping moment after each goal!!)
** I recognised my slip in mindset - I have rectified it. I could have chosen the dark path into self destruction, but I rose above my fears and doubts and can hold my head high!!
Mindset for the win!!
