I was not dwelling on it so to speak but the thought kept swirling around my head - I so desperately wanted last Wednesday's measure up to lift me up, to reassure me that progress IS being made here and I was robbed of that!! Robot Girl let me down by giving me a bogus initial reading and therefore a bogus 4 week followup result!! (even though she has since sincerley apologised for the mistake).
I have accepted the fact that my BF% is higher because Mr Second Opinion did it the correct way- that's fine - I'd rather know the truth than be delutional that I have less BF than I actually do (way way way lessn than I actually do as it turns out). But I still felt flat and disappointed.
I was speaking to a dear friend and fellow 12WBT-ioner yesterday about the whole cock up when she smacked me in the face with a positive spin that I never ever once saw!
Robot Girl took my callipar measurements (inaccurately as it may) in week 1 -
Robot Girl took my callipar measurements again in week 4 - same body areas, same technique, same style.....THE SAME AREAS..... get it??!!
I didn't at first!!
If the same person used the same body areas using the same technique as she did 4 weeks ago and saw a dramatic improvement (a total measurement reduction from 103mm to 72mm) then regardless of whether the body areas were wrong thus giving an incorect OVERALL BF% - the reductions she measured aren't a lie - they are real - 31mm of fat is gone from my body!!
Thanks Sooooooooooo much Tara!! I was concentrating so hard on the negative I couldn't and wouldn't see the positive!! I have improved!! I have lost fat!! 31mm of it to be precise!! It may not be from the same places that officially create my BF% total - but it is fat that was measured on Wednesday to be less than there was 4 weeks ago!! That my friends is a win!! That is exactly what I was craving, what I needed, what I have been working for!!
What a mental Road block!! What a complete and absolute blockage I have created in my head that good information just can't squeeze through the entire construction site of negativity in my head!!
I felt so so so much better after having spoke to you Tara, you just wouldn't believe it!! You are ALWAYS so supportive, so realistic, so straight up and so bloody right all the time!! You have helped me through more mental road blocks than you know!! You are EVERYthing I need in a support person and I am so so fortunate that I have you travelling beside me through this journey!!
Love ya guts!! xx
