Have I made some improvements that the f#*&!!! scales haven't shown - have I made a difference that I can't see in the mirror???.....
Well the simple answer is : YES - but of course it has taken me half the week to realise it!!
So excited I was to take photos on Wednesday, I dragged my husband out of bed early wearing my bikini, holding the camera....my excitement soon turned to disappointment as my negitivity and blurry eyed vision took hold.
I'm downloading from the camera, snipping and cropping photos - lining them up side by side....Where's the difference?? Where's the imrovement?? They're the same!!! I cried out!! They're the bloody same 6 weeks in and I look no different!!!
It was at this stage where my husband tells me he's trying hard not to slap me and he's really disapointed that I am so blind to my (obvious to him) progress. I just couldn't see it! I could definately see a change in one photo (the tummy flab, bending down shot) but the rest.....nil, zilch, zippo!!!
So I took my frustrations out at the gym - where I was looking in the mirror and could see a leaner, fitter, stronger, tighter person looking back at me - why then could I not see it in the photos??? So I took a bloody photo right there - standing in front of the mirror at the gym where I did see progress, where I did see results of blood sweat and tears (lots and lots of tears) - and bloody hell I was going to rejoice in that!!
When I got home I posted my "lack of progress" pics onto the Lean and Strong Page - and asked if anyone else in previous rounds saw so little progress at the half way mark....well I was BOMBARDED with positive feedback words thrown around like : wow, OMG, fantastic results, awesome, obvious, inspiring, massive improvement, holy f@?k..... It felt amazing to hear those comments - it gave me such a lift!!
I can do this - I am freaking doing this!!!
Here are the photos you can judge for yourselves....
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| Week 1 to 6 - Front |
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| Week 1 to 6 - Back |
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| Week 1 to 6 - Side |
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| Week 1 to 6 - Bend (tummy flab) |
I have a little tiny problem- where I consistently want results yesterday!! But I concede, I do see imrovements and I will continue to focus on the postive and not the negative - time to start being a "Glass Half Full" kinda girl!!
I really really really have been celebrating the postives in small ways every day - here's what I took away from this week:
Monday: I went out of the house without compression underwear!!! I was nervous (and to tell you the truth, fidgeting and uncomfortable -BUT i did it and it felt good to work on changing my mindset towards learning to live life without my protective barrier!!
Tuesday: For the first time EVER I went to the gym in just my tights!! No shorts over the top - just tights!! The shape of my bum and thighs were there for all to see!! This felt like a MASSIVE success!! I MASSIVE milestone - 6 weeks ago I was wearing, conforming underwear, bike shorts, 2 singlets and shorts.....how far I have come being comfortable being seen in such a short time HAS to be classed as a win!!!
Wednesday: Half way mark photos - I had a 200g increase on the scales that I forgot to even care about!! There is a dramatic reduction in my tummy flab and my photos (although not dramatic) show change and improvements towards a tighter more tonned and terrifric body!!
Thursday: I allowed a fellow school mum practice her spray tanning skills on my legs......exposed....NOT in tights but BARE SKIN!! showing her my thighs, my bum - I was FREAKED OUT, uncomfortable plus - BUT I did it - I would have NEVER exposed myself like that in the past - baby steps!! :)
Saturday:I did not train the SSS due to sickness and fatigue - I took the 3hours of awake time between my shifts at work to rest and recooperate, rather than spending 2 of them flogging myself silly at the gym - which would have left me absolutely rooted and exhausted!! I did not beat myself up mentally, I did not feel guilty or worry that I'd missed a session - I was proud of myself for taking care of myself and putting my body before my crazy mind!!
Can't wait to share more positive improvements that I am making in my life!!!
