This morning I felt sick (and just quietly...spent most of the morning on the loo!!) I felt an anxiety attack coming on!! Nervous to the core - my tummy didn't appreciate it.
WHAT THE HELL FOR?? Walk into the gym - lift the weights - how hard is that???
It wasn't about the hard so much as it was about the unknown, my (usual) nerves about having people look at me working out - Will I be able to lift the weights? Will I be able to work the machines?? Will I look like a tool? Will other people snigger at me behind my back?
Or was it the thought of it all finally being here - for 2 months I have been "going to do the Lean and Strong program next..." and now I actually have to DO IT!....TODAY!!!
Nothing quite went to plan today either which planned havic with my mindset....
1. My workout was scheduled at 5am - but my husband got up early for work so, I had to stay home with the kids. No dramas - I can go after school drop off.
2. Breakfast time- shit! Mouldy bread (away camping for the weekend meant my kitchen was under stocked!!) - No Berry Bruschetta for me - That's ok, Muesli for the same calories - will be fine.
3. Lunch was meant to be Pumpkin and Quinoa Salad - but after school drop off, Day One Workout and Grocery shopping I had 30mins before school pick up and the cooking + preparation time for the salad was 50mins!! - Ok good old rice crackers and cottage cheese, will do just nicely.
4. And after Karate and 2 loads of washing and groceries away, kids and Steve's dinner - it was a sandwhich for me instead of my Stuffed Tomatoes with Feta, Currants and Mint!!
I am (desperately trying to tell myself) that (even though it's the first day) that 1 day off the plan is not the end of the world - especially seeing as though I still stuck to my 1200cal.
Just goes to show - if you fail to plan, you plan to fail!!
Life is not always going to fit into the 12WBT meal plan - but I will always (as I did today) stick to my calories and make healthy choices.
On a super positive note - I gave it my absolute all at the gym this morning!! It was tough going and just a glimse into what is in store for me this round but I tell you what - I won't get what I want by wishing!! I'll get it by working - and I know I can do this work.
There were a few bumps in the road at during the workout, it wasn't all smooth sailing - I stuck to the minimum of all the weight targets Mish set (ie - Leg press was set at6 40-70kg - so naturally I took the 40kg) and all of them were adequate - some even way too hard.
Bicep curls with the barbell were crazy hard - only 10kg - the absolute minimum and I struggled to get all the reps with perfect form. I will lower it a little next time so I don't look like i'm about to fall on my face!! - or butt!! I figure perfect form with more reps is more effective than not being about to complete the sets.
Tomorrow is a new day and a new dawn - literally I'll be up at 430am!! I will maintain a positive mindset and I will rock the MASSIVE workout and crush the daily meal plan which looks delicious.
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