Monday - still on task!

Monday's Food Diary

Let them eat cake!!

So proud to have something positive to report!! Today was a complete success.

Super Saturday Session completed - 1010cal Burned! I felt absolutely shattered after over 2hours of training this morning - I was certainly not going to take one tiny bit of my hard work away by eating any of that cake!!

I brushed my teeth before icing it and got the kids to lick the bowl before I got a chance. It was HEAPS easier than I thought it was going to be - I feel 10 x more empowered by saying no to that cake than I would have enjoyed eating it!!

Will power makes me feel strong and successful - caving in makes me feel guilty, shitty, regretful and depressed sparking a chain of negative thoughts leading to negative actions - I 'll be taking the side of will power more often in the future!!

Its amazing how a simple challenge like not eating birthday cake can be so substantial - I like this feeling :)

I feel like a winner!!

So having my family over for dinner and I didn't stray once from the plan a had set forth - FINALLY!! I enjoyed their company, I enjoyed my home-made 450cal treat-night pizza and I even enjoyed my LeRice - who'da thought. I didn't even get tempted watching them eat it - and the half that was left got sent home with it's owner.

SSS - ouch!!

 

Got the ratbags doing the tempting work for me

All done and none in Mummy's mouth!!

Pumpkin, Pinenut, Feta & Vegetable Pizza - 450cal
Treat Night!!

Who would rather eat that cake over that LeRice???
Cake Vs LeRice!!
LeRice 1, Cake zero!!

Success at last!!

Oops I did it again

Well true to form - I've done it again - ignored the dangers of a red flag day! Its not the end of the universe - but I did have a plan to beat it and I ignored it!!

I licked the bowl!!......well not literally, of course, but a chocolate birthday cake I did just put in the oven and I did take a spoon to the bowl to scrape down the sides and lick that spoon!! (a few times.....)

Grr!! the calories in that are imeasurable - I just put it down as 100....few teaspoons maybe??? SEE!!! This is why I red flagged it - because I knew I have a problem with stopping the spoon from reaching my mouth - I had a plan - chew gum at the same time.  My excuse - I had no gum - but I did have toothpaste, so there goes that weak excuse out the window!!

Those few (delicious as they were) teaspoons took me over my 1200cal intake for the day.

Its not the calories that bother me - it's my will power - my ability to say NO I feel I have let myself down again - mentally .

So here it is folks - Another mini goal - tomorrow when I ice that cake and decorate that cake and serve that cake - I WILL NOT EAT A CRUM OF THAT CAKE!!

I have already bought a LeRice (166cal) for my dessert to eat when everyone else is eating cake so I don't feel like I'm missing out. 

I have told my husband my goal so I can be held accountable for my actions.

Watch this space for a full report of tomorrows cake avaoidance antics!!

I will succeed!!

As Promised - My diary entry for today - completed - honestly - 100%

Photo's Only

I've had a massive day today, physically and emotionally - Just photo blogging today as promised.....

Food Diary for the day

Calorie's Burned Today

A month in Review

As today is the 1st of February and the first month of the year is now behind me (already!!) I thought I would reflect on my diary over the last month and see how I faired with the goals I set at the beginning of the year...... My Goals set for January were as follows:

Page from my diary I made before New Years 2012

So let's see where I sit.....

§  To hit 60kg on the scales 

§  To lose weight EVERY week (no gains)

§  To stay positive and honest

§  To live a mantra every day

Did I do everything I was supposed to do to get there?
 

      §  By eating Clean?  (most days, but not all days)
      §  By exercising 6 days a week?
       (I have been training 3-4 times a week)
      §  By NOT eating any of mum's birthday Cake 
       (I'm a good cook - I caved!!!)  
      §  By tracking my Calories in my food diary 
       EVERYDAY?? 
      (I had 100%  completion of my food diary on
        only 10 days out of the 31 days throughout
        January!!!)  SHOCKING!!!

I really let myself down!! This is so like me - I talk the talk, but can't walk the walk!!

BUT looking at the positives of this situation....

I'm glad this happened NOW and not one month into the 12WBT round.  I'm glad that I have reflected and seen that I didn't try hard enough and that not one of my goals were met because I did not 100% completely succeed at ONE of the tasks that were supposed to get me there!!

Although I am completely disapointed in myself - I'm not dwelling on it - I'm learning from it.  It is so easy to talk the talk, to set the goals to say "I'm gunna" but it takes so much more to ACTUALLY do it.  This is what is making me so terrified of the next round!! Last round I wanted to lose 12kg and only lost 9 - I know deep down that was because I didn't follow the program to the absolute letter.  I HAVE to do that this time and it terrifies me.  I think I'm going to fail myself again!

At least now -  it's in black and white (and red...) that I a haven't done what it takes - I have to recify this!! 

So Mini goal Time:

This week (wed to wed/weigh day to weighday) I WILL:

      §  Exercise 6 days (Wed, Thurs, Fri, Sat, Mon, Tues)

       and

§  Diarise my food HONESTLY all week 

I Will take a photo of my Diary page everyday to prove I have done it - Even if I don't have time to sit and a write a blog entry, I will at least post my100% FILLED OUT diary entry each day regardless.

Here is today's diary

Already I can feel a big number coming along for this week - already I have put things back in the cupboard that I would normally have a little nibble at - because I didn't want it in my food diary!! That's progress.

Little bites add up - what you sneak into your mouth in private can be seen on your body in public!!! and on the scales each Wednesday!!

Conquering the Callipers

The day had arrived – my body fat assessment at the gym – aaaagggghhhhh!!! Let’s think back to my previous post about how I NEVER leave the house without conforming underwear...... imagine my horror at a process that involves pinching my fat rolls and measuring them with callipers!! I have been internally panicking about this since the moment I made the appointment, but it has to be done.  I cannot set a realistic, measureable goal involving body fat percentage without knowing my current percentage. 

I put on my workout clothes, minus my leotard, took a deep breath (winged about it a lot) and hopped in the car to leave – already I feel naked and exposed. 

I scanned the car park at the gym – ok, not too many cars here before 8am – not too many people that have to endure seeing me naked.....

For all those who are not aware of what is involved in the dreaded calliper test.....it goes a little something like this:

Overall the experience was terrible – made no more comforting by the Robot Girl who took my measurements.  I tried to chit chat, ask questions, nervously trying to calm myself in a terrifying situation but Robot Girl was not interested in speaking more than 2 words in a row to me – maybe she was yet to fuel up on caffeine, maybe she wasn’t sympathetic to my plight.... either way I felt underwhelmed leaving the tiny room with the measuring tape and the fat callipers and quite frankly no more knowledgeable about what I really feel I can achieve this round.

I did find out this – My body fat percentage is 25.7% - this, according to Robot Girl’s little laminated chart puts me in the “Good” category – I should be aiming to be in the “Excellent” section with a body fat of 19.7%...... is this achievable in 12 weeks? Robot Girl can’t tell me, should I be aiming for less than this? – Robot Girl, doesn’t think so.....

Thank god for the 12WBT Lean and Strong Facebook page – I have been flooded with information and responses to my questions. So the L&S girls believe that 19.7% is achievable in the 12 weeks... I googled some Body Fat charts – this one is the prettiest..... no, no, no really this is the only one for women I could find and age appropriate.....oh ok, you got me – and it has pretty colours!!

So currently according to my chart, remembering my ripe old age of 3-Oh, I am in the “Fit” category.  So my goal..... to skip Slim (healthy) and charge straight into Lean (low)!!

There I said it!! Old Robot Girl was right – 19.7% is where I should be heading.  I really don't know how all this body sculpting thing works - I am used to setting goals that I know all about - kilos - easy, understandable - this body fat percentage stuff.... tuff! If I get to 6 weeks and I'm not heading in the right directions I'll re-evaluate - but LEAN is what I want to be - that's why I'm doing Lean and Strong!!

The L&S girls also recommended setting a non numbers goal - such as performing a chin up.... I thought 2 achievable non numbers goals for me would be:
1. Perform 10 FULL pushups in a row - up on toes (currently do womens push ups on my knees)
2. Move from level 2 in the Abs stregth section of the Fitness Test  - level to be announced once I get sent it again this round.  Last round my abs stregth didn't budge the whole 12 weeks!! Not this time!!

I think sticking close to the facebook page will help me this round, the L&S ladies are super motivated, super fit and super impressive - their before and after shots are out of this world!! I can't wait to add mine in 12 weeks time!!

**** Brag Alert****

I picked myself up after the 'measuring my fat rolls incedent', dusted myself off and headed to Harbour Town for a spot of shopping - On the agenda - a black skirt for netball (1st day Tuesday - stay tuned). 

So in short, after trampsing from sportstore to sprtstore in the rain, it went a little like this - Nike: wrong size - too big (only Large available)
                   - Fila: wrong size - too small (only extra extra small available)
                   - Adidas - right size (yay size 10) - wrong colour!! Doh
                     this is getting boring - bloody factory outlets!!
                   - New Balance - HOORAY!! right size, right colour, right price!!


What size you ask....? Extra Small!! (what!?) and a top to go with?? In size Small no less..... so I know that most factory outlets sell stock that may be faulty in some way..... maybe the tags are wrong on these babies.....but who cares!! I'm owning it!!!

Shapewear Be Gone!!

So today I completed Pre Season Task 3 – Take Control Set your Goal .  One of my 3 month goals (which will take us through to the end of this 12week program) is:

“To feel comfortable in my clothes without ‘The Tard’”.

I have a confession to make – all my friends know it – it’ll be no surprise to any of them – I wear conforming shape wear under my clothes EVERYTIME I leave the house, EVERYDAY without exception. 

I have many variations – but they all do the same thing – they squish my flabby bits in tighter so I appear to be thinner than I actually am.  I wear them under EVERTHING!!  At work, under my scrubs, I wear a full leotard version which my work mates have dubbed “The Tard”. 

I HATE the feeling of how my flabby bits wobble when I walk, when I’m not wearing  my shapewear – so I simply always wear it.  I wear it to work under my scrubs, I wear it to school pick up, I wear it to the gym and to boot camp under my workout clothes – always, always, always.  So much so that when I was telling people last round that I wanted to lose 12kg – they were saying “From where?!” Nobody believed that I had 12kg to lose because no one knew what I really look like, no one EVER sees my actual body shape, no one would EVER catch a glimpse of the skin on my tummy. 

If I ever lift my arms and my top rides up – all you’ll see is black.  If I ever bend over and my pants ride down – you’ll NEVER see my butt crack – you’ll just see black.  At the gym I’ll usually have 2 or 3 layers on the top to prevent all the wobbling when I’m moving about and always 2 layers on the bottom.  I can’t wear tights because I hate the shape of my bum and thighs and I can’t wear just shorts because I hate how flabby my thighs are and I couldn’t stand to have anyone see them flopping about as I’m working out!! So I wear both – always tights or bike shorts with my shorts on over the top.

My best friend always says to me “Why are you still wearing those things!!??” she doesn’t think I need them – But I do, I would just be so ashamed if someone got a view of my flabby tummy or my chubby butt crack!! And not to mention the love handles over the top of every pair of pants I own – even though I have lost 10kg!!

So one of my goals for this round is to lose “The Tard” to lose the shapewear – to go to the gym with just my top on and not constantly be sweating it up in 2 or more layers!! To have reshaped my body enough that I will no longer feel the need to wear shapewear everyday, everywhere. 

I am looking forward to “Lean and Strong” re-shaping my body so I feel confident enough to go bare!!..... Or just wear one layer of clothing for a change!! (It’ll be a hell of a lot cooler in summer!!)

Here They Are: Soon the shapewear will be GONE!!